only when im lonely

thoughts cloud my judgement as days run into weeks....you control every emotion with just one word....my joy and sorrow lays within your tongue....a drug you are....but only when im lonely...the need you bring into my spirit turns into a void once time begins to stretch....expanding into the depths of my soul.....so now and again i am lonely...you are always needed please dont misunderstand....but when iam left alone there is no one there to comfort....only my thoughts and memories of you....my company of joy which turns into sorrow...but ill live for our time together again....when we can be reunited....because missing you kills me....but only when im lonely